.. need to let go

29 03 2005

my head full with things
and i don’t want to carried them home
i need to let them go
.. but i don’t know how

my friends and i planning for something
got to be there on time
need to release the burden
.. they gotta be know how

if the don’t know
i must find out how
this thing buging me
.. need to find out how





knowing the things i don’t have.. ( sometimes.. )

29 03 2005

.. never called she say
.. never care she say
.. don’t even want to know she say
.. always using “busy” word as excuse she say

well that all are true.. for today
that all are true.. for the last 6 hours of my life today
that all are true .. at the time she called me today

and for all that she just don’t want to know
and for all that i am taking all the blame

i loved her but still she’s never there in the right time

.. what am i supposed to do ?

..
..





.. mood dan otak

16 03 2005

i said “.. i use mood for work you don’t”
and you said “ok.. my work is not need any brain around”

and i said ” i said MOOD not BRAIN, MOOD !!”
and she said “don’t you dare to yell at me !!”

… and then it goes

… this morning…

she said “i miss you sweety..”
i said “hmm..”

she said “i want to see you, we can meet at ambasador, how about that?”
i said “ok.. “





strange but beautiful

10 03 2005

I’ve been watching your world from afar,I’ve been trying to be where you are,And I’ve been secretly falling apart,I’ll see.To me, you’re strange and you’re beautiful,You’d be so perfect with me but you just can’t see,You turn every head but you don’t see me.

praf3ani: Sometimes, the last thing you want comes in first,Sometimes, the first thing you want never comes,And I know, the waiting is all you can do,Sometimes…

I’ll put a spell on you,You’ll fall asleep,I’ll put a spell on you,And when I wake you,I’ll be the first thing you see,And you’ll realize that you love me.

I’ll put a spell on you,You’ll fall asleep ‘cos I’ll put a spell on you,And when I wake you,I’ll be the first thing you see,And you’ll realize that you love me, yeah…

Aqualung – Strange And Beautiful





.. here’s from the OC

10 03 2005

How can you say your life is empty so late in the day
Why would you stay another secondNow your sight got in the way
A combination of love and aggression another second lived

Don’t paint the silence black now save me
Don’t leave it a day you got a right to stand or die so maybe
You take chances all the same
Pain comes in stagesIf we don’t make it
Nothing changes

Now the violence sleeps inside
Abandoned feeling for just a piece of mindIt’s the reason why your teething side frustrates me

Now the violence sleeps inside
Abandoned feeling for just a piece of mindIt’s the reason why your teething side irates me

Don’t leave me to pick up on your questions
Not even a dayIt’s alright to finish up your sentenceYou talk all the same
Pain comes in stages if we don’t make it
Nothing changes

Now the violence sleeps inside
Abandoned feeling for just a piece of mindIt’s the reason why your teething side frustrates me

Now the violence sleeps inside
Abandoned feeling for just a piece of mindIt’s the reason why your teething side irates me





… the same rain happen last night

10 03 2005

When I look into your eyes
I can see a love restrained
But darlin’ when I hold you
Don’t you know I feel the same

‘Cause nothin’ lasts forever
And we both know hearts can change
And it’s hard to hold a candle
In the cold November rain

We’ve been through this auch a long long time
Just tryin’ to kill the pain
But lovers always come and lovers always go
An no one’s really sure who’s lettin’ go today
Walking away

If we could take the time
To lay it on the line
I could rest my head
Just knowin’ that you were mine
All mine

So if you want to love me
Then darlin’ don’t refrain
Or I’ll just end up walkin’
In the cold November rain

Do you need some time… on your own
Do you need some time… all alone
Everybody needs some time… on their own
Don’t you know you need some time… all alone

I know it’s hard to keep an open heart
When even friends seem out to harm you
But if you could heal a broken heart
Wouldn’t time be out to charm you

Sometimes I need some time… on my own
Sometimes I need some time… all alone
Everybody needs some time… on their own
Don’t you know you need some time… all alone

And when your fears subside
And shadows still remain
I know that you can love me
When there’s no one left to blame
So never mind the darkness
We still can find a way
‘Cause nothin’ lasts forever
Even cold November rain

Don’t ya think that you need somebody
Don’t ya think that you need someone
Everybody needs somebody
You’re not the only one
You’re not the only one

november rain by Guns n’ Roses





experience from last night…

9 03 2005

sorry for not understand
sorry for my lack of time for you
sorry for being so stupid

.. there is too many already..

i don’t want to argue and i’m willing to take all the blame

.. just because the love i have for you


( i’m hoping that you would listen for all i wanted to say to you )





.. sesuatu yg tak pernah terpikir akan terjadi

8 03 2005

… i am is what i am
… i am is who i am

… i’m not somebody else
if you keep pushing me …

… i will be someone you don’t like